today I walked through the pouring rain on side of town to no rain on the other to pick up my meds and back again...I walked reasonably slow slower then normal some how I was just in it for me to walk today since I woke up at 8:30...really its more like 3am 5:30am. My psychiatrist says I should just start my day but the pharmacy isn't open at 3am in the morning.

I am trying to decide if I should go to my folks for the weekend or not...I have pills until Monday. But they make me on edge and I seem to always feel unwanted there.

today I feel like a rollercoaster of emotions from sad, to depressed, to anxious to miserable, to indifferent to disappointed to puzzled to lonely to intrigued