Hon, that sounds normal to me (considering that we here have a different definition of "normal"). If I were dealing with all you're dealing with, the same thoughts would have crossed my mind, I guarantee.

I'm glad you're feeling better, but I still don't think you should blame yourself for your reaction.

(((((((((((((((((Rap)))))))))))))) You have stuck it out with me and so many others here, why would I or anyone else give up on you? You have a lot to offer people, and a lot of them who care.

Hugs,
Candy