Welcome Orion, I can't imagine the mind games you had to live with growing up.. my father used to play mind games too and the result is total confusion i am left to sort out.

Memories do come when we are ready to heal. Part of therapy is simply talking it out so you can make sense of it, but you have to open up on your own accord. when you are ready. You can't force it either.When it comes to healing from abuse, it takes baby steps. You have to be easy with yourself.

Keep talking as you feel you are able.. people here will listen and offer any advise they might have, so you have come to the right place.

Peace,Faith