I'm scared and I have always been too wary of discrimination (with jobs, etc.) to tell my doctor, but I do want to be honest somewhere.

Is it really, really bad to hear mumbling and whispering (not everyday, but sometimes)? Too sometimes feel surreal (like I am in a Dali painting or in the music video for Black Hole Sun)? Too occasionally see shadow-people? Too get swept up in odd beliefs that pass (like for a while I though this guy I was talking to online was reading my mind, so I stopped talking to him, but later decided that I was probably imagining it? To have trouble deciding what really happened and what was just imagined? While being an eccentric, moody and sullen, withdrawn-type loner?

I am afraid that other people think I am crazy. I am afraid that I am not insane, but balancing on the precipice between normality and madness.

I use to have straight up strange thinking (I was constantly and terrifyingly obsessed with the idea of the world ending), but that cleared up when I started on a small dose of Abilify, for my anxiety.