I have been meaning to send you a note for while now .. I know what you are going thru. My eldest daughter was killed in 1995 in a car accident. I've had so many people tell me to just get over it .. I just can't!
You are grieving! Its gonna take time .. lots of time .. it WILL get better I promise, but you will probably never get over IT!
You are a mother .. a good one too from what I've read over the past month. So, please give yourself some time .. pluueese! Give it a year at least .. then if you feel you must leave this screwed up world .. then go! But, dont do that to your hubby so soon after your son's death! It will destroy him and everyone else here and there that literally DO CARE about you .. me included!
Give yourself a shake right now and think about it .. you are a valued member of our society.
Find another therapist/shrink .. this one isnt doing his/her job properly!