I just got off the phone with the crisis line it was the suggestion of the staff downstairs with the way I was feeling on my ranging feelings so I gave them a call so on scale between 1 to 10 I am about 7 now for suicidal feelings...I was a 7.5 when I got off the phone. I have thinking about it for the last two days strongly even suggested on mood journal I keep on my phone I could run in front of a train. But now I am listening to music in attempts to drown it all out. I am sorry if this triggers anyone...