Hello, I'm new! I always felt there was some kind of odd feeling about myself ever since I recovered from depression/anxiety and all the bad **** that happened to me. Even my fellow workers have described me as odd (but fun too) which has got me thinking lately that maybe I do have a problem. So I come here to ask you guys what you think if you are happy to help!

For example I can be talking to my workers or customers one-to-one/group, interested and fully engaged into the topic, then suddenly I would space out for a few minutes till me or someone snaps me out. Then I'm like 'what were we talking about?' I wouldn't be daydreaming of anything, I just space out into nothingness. I've been told I don't pay attention a lot of the time and I was quite shock to hear that because I didn't realize how often it happened.

Often I feel like I'm not apart of my body - I ask myself is this really me? I move my arms, wave my hands sometimes to try a feel more connected to my body, but it just makes me feel more strange. At one point I have cut myself just to feel pain and alive. Even my surroundings feels detached - am I really here? Did I really traveled to get here? The other day I was driving my car and I almost got hit because I wasn't aware of my surroundings, once again I spaced off! (I rarely drive for that reason).

My memory is very poor and I constantly ask people the same questions over and over again until I get whatever I needed done. I don't remember much of my past, my entire past feels like a fog... even yesterday's memory I can't remember well. I can only remember people's faces/names and my relationship to them for the most part.

I spend most of my free time losing myself into the internet or watching movies. I have poor concentration, it does take a lot out of me to try and focus on one thing.

I don't think this is normal? It doesn't bother me too much but then maybe I should be showing some concern into it.