When I was at my worst I would binge and purge every single meal I ate every day of the week. That was almost 10 years ago and I'm 24 now.

Now when I do find myself bingeing and purging again it is when I'm going through a very stressful time. When I was younger my purpose was to lose weight but I realize it now that it was always my way of handling my stress. I'm no longer as compulsive as before but it is so frustrating with I find myself getting caught up with the same state of mind as before.

I'm just so damn hard on myself. When I'm on a healthy diet and on a reasonable workout routine I'm feeling great but once I eat that extra slice of pizza or skipping a working out I feel like such a disappointment. Before I know it I'm going down hill again.

Sometimes I think its just better not to set myself on a diet and workout routine because I could slip right back into bulimia before I could even catch my breath. I lack such self-control.