I thought your letter was excellent. I hope you get the response you want from your T. I know how it is to want to be special to your T, and want her to love you. I want the same from my T, but I've come to realize that she is not going to love me, and I am going to be special, but just as special as her other clients, not more so. Still, she says she cares about me very much, and shows that she does in many ways.

It hurts to not get what we want from our Ts. It's a fine line between them giving us what we need, not want, and us feeling that it's "good enough". You've been with your T a long time. It could be worth continuing, or it could be that you'd be better with a different T. Whatever happens, I wish you luck!