I had a Freeski BigAir competition today. I won, but at a serious cost. It was about a 50-60' gap jump and while doing a practice run, I bailed mid-air. I fell 20' onto ice and suffered some bad back injuries. Well, whenever I ski like this, I have an unhealthy amount of adrenaline and manic moods, so what did I do? I kept going... On my fourth practice attempt, I cleared the jump, but fell after I couldnt rotate around far enough, injuring my back even worse. It was at the point where I should have been carted off, but I kept going. After 6 attempts, I finally nailed the jump (while in a ton of pain) pulling off a trick good enough to win the competition. I came home and after my mania settled down, I couldnt move. My back is messed up and I'm probably going into the hospital soon Am I doing too much to myself? Is it wrong to let myself suffer like this just to win? I'm the most competitive person I know and now its come back to bite me...