I used to cheat a lot of tests and I also have stolen a dictionary from my 7th grade english teacher who used to possess this dictionary that i had for a while but then i just started tearing up the pages on a whim and ultimately threw it away. so whenever i look up a word and the next day i masturbate or anything like that, or if i can't remember, or if i just crumble up my paper because i feel like what i did was not worthwhile, i start to reflect on that moment, how before i used to have these sexual feelings and how i am now ashamed of what i did. wish i had never stolen it from him. i don't know if i should get him a new one and resolve the whole thing. but i don't see him anymore and paying him a visit during the summer would be nice it's just that now i need to explain to my parents what i did and i don't think that it's necessary now because he's already found out when i told him about it a few weeks ago. can you imagine how long it took me to confess to him? i wish i had told him right away. now sometimes things happen to me and when they don't make sense to me, i start to think it must be something that i did. clearly, there's no way this would be happening. or is it just my brain playing tricks on me again? sometimes it would tune up a song from the past, a sad song never a good one, and then i would feel sad about it.
all i can say now is i wish i did not steal and that once you start stealing, it has dire effects on ya.
remember to not cheat because then you'll fail a lot of tests until the time is up for you to start returning to the way things were. these things happened and i now believe in what goes around, comes around.