Moose the more you up you dose of Ativan the MORE you will need to achieve the same effect.. You will run out long before your next refill is due .. what will you do then?

Suicidal thoughts float through my head on a daily basis... A couple times a month I give it some good thought. But I have a "game plan" of what I need to do and who I need to call if my thoughts turn to planning ... My T said its very common to feel this way.

You really need to learn coping skills that can be used anywhere and isn't just a pill to hopefully numb you down.

My life is certainly not perfect, my Bipolar can give me problems daily if i don't use my skills for coping and not letting it ruin my day, or make me worry and wonder how my mood will be the following day or week or month.

The funniest thing is I don't even realize my coping skills are at work until I think about it... They just appear and get to work..

Just keep moving forward and things do improve.