This is a loss that you are grieving about. This is a process that has five stages-denial, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance, but not everyone follows a specific and there is no time limit for any of the stages. You do not have to go through each stage to heal nor do you have to complete each stage. There is no typical recovery from grief as there is no typical loss.

Another way of looking at grieving a loss is that you are going to be on a roller coaster of emotions. The first ride will the roughest and there will be times when it may seem the dips are deeper and longer. Gradually, there be calmer and shorter dips as you start to heal.