I,am so so ashamed and guilt ridden, the shame weighed so heaverly on me i did not want to get up this morning, as you know i struggle with booze ....well two weeks ago i managed to tapper down to 6 units per night..... this last week i've took the piss and gone stupid and gone right back up to about 15 units,last night was the last straw , i had 2 bottles of wine, i've let my self and family down. i need help really bad , i just can't seem to stop..... i've tried every thing,... when i was down to 6 units, the next day i was so happy,, i felt more clarity to life , i was begining to see through the misty fog at last that wavered over me every morning after a session ...now i i've ruined it , what is there left for me to try, my confidance is at an all time low anyway, i feel digusted and ashamed of not sticking it out on 6 units,
sorry it is long, but am desperate now, i want to be free of the demon in a bottle. thankyou for reading
gismo x