no matter how much your H has engaged back with life, he still needs you to be around, if he didn't he would have walked away by now. you may think it is time to set him free, but he probably feels completely different. please talk to him about what you are planning before you decide what is right for him. the reason he gets mad is because he loves you, he probably is grieving for the woman you were and is feeling frustrated with himself for not being able to help you get well again.

believe me when i say you are not in control of when your life will end, you can try to end it, but if it is not your time you will survive and may have more things to deal with as a result. i know some one who tried to end their life by jumping under a train, all it did was chop off his legs, now he spends his waking hours sitting in a wheelchair watching his young sons playing football wishing he could join in and play with them. another tried tablets and now has trouble eating solid food... it is not worth it. when the time is right your end will come whether you help it or not so please try putting your little energy into living rather than dying.