i think we get stuck on these. Some **** lingers.

I get that each time I am on cliff or bridge or high building. It's just a thought like others at this point. "those shoes are hot". "I wanna jump off this bridge". "If i weren't such prude, i'd do that hottie in a suit". Seriously, I do think like this. And it's okay, thoughts are not me.

I am with others. Benzos are downers... not good for sui thoughts... i don't even think they are designed to treat this... they are good for anxiety issues... but eh... intrusive thoughts need to be dealt with differently.