No need to apologize, Speed. You're having the normal times of despair in grief. Give yourself time and continue to post as you wish.

We're all here pulling for you to get past this as you work your way through the snags.

You're a very fine person and you will be calmer and safe as you continue
to release the pain and anger.

Thinking about you today and wishing you a good Sunday. Thought about
trying to go to church yet?