Understanding it is something that has taken up most of my life. It takes a awhile to work our way thru the layers and interconnections. Im glad Ive done the work but it can be so exhausting and confusing. No ones life is worthless but it can feel that way. Life can look perfectly fine on the outside and youre not sure things are ok for others, it just looks that way. A lot of people are putting on the mask. How long have you been in therapy? Do you feel like anyone in your team is helping you get at the root of things? Its hard trying to sort thru it so take breaks when you need to.