God Knows your heart, and even if you don't feel close to Him now.. He is close to you , and He will guide you to the place He wants you to be.

God's church isn't about the building or the doctrines practiced there. It isn't about religion either... God's church is made up of believers in Him.. and believers can be found everywhere.

Unfortunately people often call themselves christians when in reality they are only that on Sunday in church because it looks good on them.

It sounds to me like you might be lonely for someone to share your faith with.. to grow in Christ with.. I know that feeling.

I think if you continue to pray about itand ask God to lead you to where He needs you to be so you can be all you can be in Him.. He is faithful and He will lead you.. listen.. be patient.I will keep you in my prayers... and I'll be here to help lift to you if you need me.. thats what sisters do.And we are sisters in Christ.Faith.