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Originally Posted by Rect0pathic
Last week, after about 7 years, I finally told T about SA.
Now, for the first time ever, I really don't want to go back. I don't want to talk about it, but I know she will want me to as she didn't honour my request last week after I had told her and requested that i didn't feel strong enough to talk about it.
Speaking about it will do no good for me at this time. The only reason I told her in the first place was because she sort of bargained with me that if I didn't tell her, it would show I didn't trust her after all this time.
I feel ready to terminate therapy now. I've tried to in the past but she gets angry and offended (not obviously, but her body language changes)
I think I need therapy to get over therapy!
Have any of you told a disclosure and not wanted to return?
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I felt strange after talking about it, but I still wanted to go back. If I was pressured into talking about it I think I would end up running. My T would not force me to talk about it, and kind of made sure I really wanted to tell him about it when I brought it up the first time. This is just me, but I would not deal well with someone telling me I had to do something in order to prove that I trusted them.
I am sorry that you are feeling this way. It is something difficult to talk about, but just remember to move at your own pace, not anyone else's. If you go next week you don't have to talk about it if you don't want to.