I wrote a long response, but the computer ate it. In short, I think it's normal to not to want to return after a big disclosure. I know I have felt that way any number of times, and it has been therapeutically profitable to go back and work through it. However, and this is a HUGE however for me, my T has never forced me to discuss the disclosures, and leaves me a choice always. If he ever became angry if I expressed a hesitation about returning, I would become enraged.

So, on the one hand, going back may be productive so you can experience this SA as less shameful and secret. On the other hand, being forced to talk, or manipulated into continuing therapy is absolutely unacceptable. Maybe it's time for a different therapist just to go through the SA stuff but not feel forced.