It can hurt deeply but this is Life. Absolutely nothing to be gained by blaming yourself (or her for that matter). Friends often grow apart, they change, they find something that probably takes the place of whatever they got from you, maybe without conscious awareness. I am hearing a very deep sensitivity, and deeply sensitive souls will find Life is a double edged sword. You can care very strongly and maybe feel that it is coming back at you, but when things change like this, that extra caring bites you hard. Please learn to stop blaming yourself, there is no "fault" in this.

As a child of alcoholic(s) you're likely aware of the effect that often has on your self esteem and many other factors. Al-Anon could be of great help to you in that area. Taking responsibility for your own actions and your own happiness can make all the difference in developing a new, healthy friendship with someone. You are loved and you are no less loved just because this friendship ended, whether you can believe that right now or not. But as one who has suffered low self worth all my life, I think I can recognize a fellow sufferer! We cannot and should not look to others for our value. When we do not do that as much (preferably not at all), then things fall into perspective and are not so debilitating... we begin to be responsible towards our own needs, feeling ever less dependent upon the approval of another. Hope this makes sense. Peace... Alex.