I am in the same place. The world is full of evil and what is good is being overwhelmed . I want to die, but . . . . what if I miss something good?!? Silly thought. Good thlngs don't last. Mother nature? Nature is anything but mothering. Nature kills everything eventually. the new feeds off the dead. I have no idea why we are alive. We will all die sooner or later. If sooner, we could also miss a lot of bad things or maybe it will be worse. We are crazy to ever laugh at all. Maybe just try to keep on dancing & ignore everything but the music. Don't listen to me. I'm off my rocker!!