[Trigger] I'm miserable today. Every day college gets closer and closer and I know I won't be able to handle it. The classes, the social contact, trying to settle on a major, living in the dorms within such a close proximity of others. I know I'm going to feel so alone. And then after college, what then. I won't have any friends, I won't have anyone except my mother, but I can't live with her, because I have to make something out of my life, but I won't be able to. I don't know if I can handle a job, but even if I could, what's the point of a job when there isn't even a point to my life. I'm just tired. I don't have the energy to do anything. I just want to go away.

Very bleak message today. I'm sorry.