I am terrible today. I've spent the whole day wallowing about last night. I'm not sure where I should post these thoughts. I don't want to glut the forum with new threads specifically about my issues, but boy could I use some solidarity.

I feel useless.

Expendable, invisible, ancillary. I could disappear and the world would roll on without me.

Last night I went out with friends, and my one friend wouldn't even look at me. He just...I know I can't make him look. I can't make him text me back. But I am dying for him to see me and he just refuses. I don't know what to do. If I hadn't been there last night, nothing would be different.

I am just a novelty that at any time can be discarded.

God I sound so BPD.