there was no if on this question for me. every time I was near Cynthia (the DHS caseworker on my DHS case that got fired for harrassment and braking all kinds of laws and guidelines on my case) I would end up in the memory piece of "margo". No matter how hard I stuck to grounding myself and so on in her presence she would push my buttons beyond and then some.
Switching is trigger related. so in order for me to switch into "margo" around Cynthia I must while being not dissociated already be getting mad about something or the person (in this case it was a woman named Cynthia) that I am near.
So I had to pay attention to how I feel and when I start feeling floaty and far away I had to use my grounding techniques locate the trigger and take care of the trigger usually by leaving the situation.
Since the trigger to my dissociating around cynthia was her harrassment of me, my first step was making sure I wasn't alone with her. and my second step was practicing using my grounding and relaxation techniques even more at home so that it became even more of a habit for me topay attention to what I was experiencing with my five senses and emotions so that I could catch myself as I start feeling floaty and far away and pull myself back out of that tunnel and back into the present situations. By doing this I had more control of my grounding and relaxation techniques around Cynthia. So that I was no longer acting out the angry memories known as margo when around Cynthia.
All that practice helped for therapy purposes to because now I have even more control when LL and I are talking and I start floating off into my tunnel I cam alot of the times pull myself back out of the tunnel and into the present situation. just as fast as LL realizes I started slipping into my tunnel, Im usually back fully aware again.
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