I'm still here too, sis. I know it feels like the grief will never get better, but it does.
The first few weeks were awful when Dave died. All my thoughts and actions were based around Dave. Everything I did was about Dave. I'd go thru pictures, his clothing, his tools, anything about him. I got obsessive about it, until my daughter got me out of the house. That did me a world of good. Plus some friends had a bon-fire with loads of people. While I didn't want to go, it was good that I did. People can be a good remedy for grief.
Just know we're here for you. Talk when you feel up to it. God bless you. Love, Lee