so last night, i'm walking up stairs and i see everyone smiling at me...get all the way up the stairs to find a dog in my home. my brother bought it from the pet store. i am afraid of dogs. have been since i can remember. they make me nervous. tense.

the rest of my family has wanted a dog for a long time and i dont want to be a jerk...they're allowed to have a dog if they want to. im just...really uncomfortable right now.

it took me a long time to get up the nerve to go out of my bedroom and upstairs to get food today.

every time i go up, he comes over and sniffs me...i automatically stop, i TRY not to be too tense, but whenever he's near me, i become really still and really quiet. i cant even talk! i havent touched the dog...no petting or anything.

it's hard to stay relaxed.

i dunno...this is gonna be a challenge for me.

it's too bad i cannot afford a place of my own at the moment. i guess for now, i'll have to deal with it. =/