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Originally Posted by adam_k
Perhaps your right. She doesn't know how to deal with this. She says she just throws her hands up and does her own thing because she doesn't know what to do. I'm not sure why I told her. I just don't know how to deal with it on my own and I wanted her to know how I was feeling. I think I was scared and reaching out. I know it is not normal to have these feelings but I do. I can say I don't and pretend to be happy, but that isn't dealing with anything.
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Of course its not dealing with it, but why does it have to be either-or? I just think that you are asking the wrong person to help you. I know that it feels like you should share, but not everyone is able to help you, because they do not know how or understand your depression. There is no shame in that either. I really think its time to try and take control of your depression and try and reclaim your life back. Its scary, and by the nature of depression it will feel like its not possible, but with the right help (professional), hard work on your behalf, you may just get there. It's got to be worth a try hasn't it? And who knows, when she see's you trying to get help, and maybe you can relay some of your therapist's tips, she may be able to understand everything better. She may then be able to support you in her own way.
Oh, and if possible, perhaps go back to the doc to try a different type of anti' d's? Antidepressants, from what I can remember, shouldn't make you feel anxious for more than a week or two.
Good luck Adam.