I know it can feel as if the thought are the end of the world, but it is possible to function while having the thoughts. It's essential to remember that you can choose not to let the thoughts become more. I agree that they are more than "just thoughts." The word "just" is belittling them. They hurt, they interfere, and they are not fair. Once you find adequate treatment I hope they will go away. Remember that you do not have to act on them and there is treatment. I hope you can find something other than anti-anxiety meds. If you are using them other than as prescribed though, you need to talk to your prescriber.