I had to deal with a lot of that growing up like since starting pre-school, even from teachers...I was consistently sort of the outcast who got picked on at every school I went to and it was a lot since we moved practically every year. Of course there was not much I could do about it, trying to get help from teachers or other school staff usually just led to me getting blamed for people bullying me or they couldn't do anything.

It certainly has effected me, I have PTSD partially due to that...but there was another bigger more sudden trauma that really set it off. But aside from that I am just severely anxious about any situation that involves being around people or meeting them. Part of the reason I fail at jobs is I get worried that the other employees might have a problem with me and might take things too personally and my lack of confidence is kind of obvious. I mean hell I can't even deal with being around little kids in a school like environment without getting nervous because of how intimidated I felt as a child when all the other kids were either picking on me or ignoring the situation lest they become 'losers' to.

But yeah I think the main effect was it seems as though I don't even have a foundation with which to build any confidence on. Even though I did well enough with school work and was willing to attempt things I was constantly told how I couldn't do anything, couldn't do anything right or how stupid or retarded I am. So yeah if someone says 'I miss my childhood.' I am thinking 'what's to miss.'

At least now I have the option to be away from people who make me feel like crap, rather than being subject to them every day of the week.