I read all your replies; I think the reason, the two most important reasons, i'm doing this is that I'm only twenty and i look at my life and now, feeling the way I feel, and I think to my self," I don't want to feel this way for the rest of my life." And second, I don't want the people around me to have to deal with it also. I love them, and I want their happiness and their comfort to be enough to let me know that everything really will be OK. But sometimes that isn't enough...