I'm a pet lover, too, which is why this is frustrating and difficult and making me so angry.

What kind of pet lover wants to get rid of a pet?

Like I said, I love my dog fiercely, and the other cat is great. Cats I've had in the past were loving, but this cat the pees everywhere is anti-social. Always has been. I can't even pet it because it snaps at me and won't allow affection.

No, I'm not attached to this cat.

I have often wished that I never got it. It hasn't enhanced our lives. It hasn't been fun or cute or loving. We've tried over the years to pick it up and cuddle with it. It has never allowed us.

Then a couple of years ago, when the neighbor died and his indoor/outdoor cat decided to adopt us, this cat started peeing. It would stop for a while, but then it would start in again.

These last few weeks, it has been peeing more and more, until tonight when I caught her on my bed.

So now it's 1:20 a.m. and I'm so wound up and mad that I don't know how I'm going to fall asleep.

I could take half an Ambien, but even half makes me wake up with a foggy head.