Me: 25 (26 in April). Married to youth minister for 5 years. Have 2 year old daughter. Babysit a 3 year old boy in home full-time. I would call myself a sex-addict-ish.

First some background. My first kiss wasn't until I was 16. After that, I wanted more and more. But on the outside, I was the "goody-good" kind of girl. Great grades, manners, "perfect" Christian girl, etc. But I loved the thrill of being a "rebel" and messing around with guys I barely knew. Lost virginity at 18 with an ex-boyfriend for "closure" as he said. lol. Only had sex with 1 other guy before marriage. He was my "California" boyfriend. Made 2 trips out to see him, before I broke it off. At the same time, I was living the good, Christian girl life and interning at my church. The guy intern is who I ended up falling in love with and marrying.

The week before he proposed, I was vacationing in Cancun, getting drunk, and messed around with a hot guy from Australia. My excuse was getting in my fun while I can.

During marriage, I have kept an ongoing relationship with a guy I messed around with in high school. I was a senior and he was a freshman, so I always called him "My Freshman." We, to this day, haven't actually been together, but we occasionally text, email, and/or Skype with each other, trading pictures & videos. We have planned getting together several times, but one of us always backs out. I tell him he using me for free porn and he says I'm using him and just being a big tease to him, but we still continue with the fun.

I have also traded pics through email with a few more guys.

I did go through with it once with a guy friend. He and I were good friends in high school and best friends in college. After marriage, I stopped talking to him since my husband was jealous. But then, I secretly started talking to him, all non-sexual at first. About 3 years into marriage, I was in my hometown and texted him. We hung out at my friends, but when we left, we went to his apartment. We fooled around for awhile, but I wasn't able to go all the way through with it.

I have tried a few different websites trying to find a girl to mess around with. I've always wanted to be with another girl, but I always chicken out. My best friend in high school was bi, but didn't tell me until college, although I already knew. By the time, she told me, I was already married so she wouldn't mess around with me. We would flirt, but that's it.

All in all, I love to flirt and love the potential of an affair, but it's never really happened. I know it's wrong, but I still want it to happen, especially being with another girl. I love being a rebel: I live a "boring, good-girl" life in reality, but love the secret sexy other life of mine. Oh, and my husband is lousy in bed.

(I also have bipolar, so maybe that's a cause too?)