Mary Alice,
I wish I could help you wipe a few of these things of your list of troubles. I am so proud of you for staying strong and making sure that Alex got his money into his own accounts. That is so wonderful.

About the medication. I know this is going to sound silly but I read about Fish oil...Omega 3 and Omega 6 oils...are extremely helpful in smoothing out some of the bumps in brain functioning. I have been using it for almost a month along with a potent mega vitamin with Selenium in it and have had excellent results. I know it isn't like getting the meds from the doctor but since that option is being denied you right now it couldn't hurt to try the fish oil. I have been taking one 1000mg tablet twice a day and have found my mood has stablized substantially. My sister uses St. John's Wort for a mood elevater and swears by it. I haven't tried that so can't say anything but she loves it.

You have been in my thoughts, take care and be kind to yourself,
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft