Thanks for replying. Sorry it took so long to get back to you two. It's difficult to talk about myself..even if my problems are all I can manage to talk about. I don't understand. I haven't talked to anyone at all lately.. Feeling like I'm a failure. As a friend, brother/son, as a person.

My friend called me today, she said that another friend needed Benadryl for a panick attack.. I don't have my license and I've been sick for a few days, so I wasn't able to give him any. Although they were able to find someone to bring him some..I feel that being a friend, I should have taken it to him anyways.

I wish I knew if someone didn't like talking to me. If I ask too many questions, or sound stupid. If I say "I, Me, My" too much. I rarely write a sentence on here without "I". Selfish. Stupid. Ah, whatever.

Does anyone else worry about people watching you? For example, I went outside to smoke a cig a bit ago. I noticed a car in the parking lot of the Auto Service Shop across the road. The first thought I had was, "Is there someone in that car looking over here?" I'll note that I don't actually believe that there is someone there, just that I always feel like I'm being watched so I look for confirmation that it's actually happening.

There I went again. Lol. Sorry about that.

Wish you all the best,
Chris.