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Old Mar 04, 2013, 09:53 AM
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I noticed there is a notice under my profile name of how many "likes" I got or gave.
If it is decided that it is going to be kept apart of the PC features, it would be nice if you can choose not to participate in it and have a scoreboard on your profile page.

In my time here I have lost count of how many people have said "no one IRL likes me". While some posters might say, "oh I like it because ......" I think of the possible members that might see a low number of "likes" and somehow think about it as "no one liking them at PC" either. Or even, "no one seems to like what I say" , it can already be seen in how many members post with "I am sorry if this doesn't make sense or is too long etc at the end of their post".

I try to really consider what this site is for as I mentioned before. And I have noticed that the "depression" forum is the busiest forum here. There is also "many" that do question their self worth and struggle with "low self esteem" as well. When I looked at it on my profile page this morning and "I have actually been very low lately", it didn't set well with me. I honestly don't want to think about anything that might grade me somehow. And I do remember how bad I was when I joined PC and that my family members "didn't "like" how I couldn't "just"" and I didn't understand it either.

I am sure that "some" will be doing "well" enough here and might "like" the "like" and even boo hoo my opinion about "how" someone could think about it in a bad way. Well, I know what it is really like to be at such a low that I questioned my worth in a dangerous way. I joined PC for support, not to be judged somehow.

Doc John, your site really saved my life, I am sooo grateful for it. I have been a member for coming on two years now. PTSD has been so crippling for me, sooo much hard work day after day to understand it and learn how to cope better. I can't blame some of the long time members for being very loyal to your site and the significance of people who genuinely are struggling and so "very alone" to have a "safe" place to go and find "support" and "comfort". Mental illness is "so lonely" and a person already feels as if no one likes them because they "can't seem to function right" somehow. And "yes" there are a lot of sites that offer this "like" feature, but honestly "this site" is unique and you and others have done so well in your effort to make a "safe" site. I know that isn't easy because often "mental illness" can bring on a lot of anger and that can show up and can be "not safe" for others to deal with. You have done really well to "monitor that" too.

I have seen days where while there is a certain number of members on, there can also be 1,000 visitors reading the board. It's anyone's guess why some don't join and become members here. I do know that people do join and leave because they don't feel safe, or they question their "worthiness" somehow. I can speak from my own experience, I had many of those days myself. I have had days where I pushed myself to be brave and post my opinions and thoughts on things, and was anxious all day because I felt like "someone" was not going to "like" what I said somehow. Because my IRL situation was so bad, there was a big part of me "expecting to be pounded in some way" by someone at PC. I was so crippled by PTSD that every single day was so much work, God, it was soooo much work. I wanted the PTSD to go away sooo badly, I STILL WANT IT TO GO AWAY. I honestly don't know what I would have done without PC, because I didn't have anyone IRL to help me with it. And it took me a while to find a T that specialized in PTSD and could really "help me".

Well, it is "your site" and the decision is really "yours to make" and it might seem very trivial to you and my opinion may not be all that important to you. Well, none of the members know what you think about them really and if they are even "meeting your approval" somehow. Seems odd, I know, but they do tend to wonder being that you "are" the authority figure of the site.

Open Eyes
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