I too feel that trusting my husband is hard to do. He has a past and I now clearly see that We have been together for eleven years and I can read him like a book,literally. Lately he is always late from work about an hour, or he has to do something before he comes home. I also found an Espresso place call "Twin Perk's" where he stops for coffee before work and I believe he has met one of the Baristas(they wear bikini's and are young women ) I don't have a problem with him looking at and talking to them, it's when he touches them that I then have a problem. He is almost sixty five and has an ego. It's heartbreaking to know these things continue to happen, it's liberating to be able to figure it out. They will do what they want to do regardless of how their Wife feels about it. I'm not holding my breath either. My trust issues to him are delusion. He is the one who is Narcissistic and chooses to be self centered. He also has high blood pressure and checks it all of the time. It does catch up to a person i think. who knows.
warm thoughts