Unfortunately, I had zero choice in the matter. I begged multiple people, promised that I'd keep myself safe, just let me stay. No, they insist that I have to leave. I feel ten times worse knowing that I have to leave than I did earlier when I was having the sui thoughts. Now I really want to do it (because look, I've failed at yet another thing!) but I can't because I gave all my wellbutrin to my therapist and that's the only med I had enough of to overdose.