In the beginning of December I started taper down the Ativan. I was doing great. I also got off seroquel. My husband and I started going back to the gym. I was feeling better.

Than on 1/3/13 our only child dies in our arms. Seroquel and Ativan are saving graces right now. I would be psychotic without them. I am so depressed leaving the house, dressing are impossible useless tasks. So much for plans!!!

My mom committed suicide when I was 22. I lived my adult life without a mom.
Now at 56 I lose my only child. How ever much life I have left will be without my beloved Jason. No grandchildren, my buddy Jason is gone. I am surprised I am breathing and writing this. I am sobbing beyond belief, it feels like there is a dagger in my heart. How do I go on ?????????