Thank you all. These are all options I will try to consider (except maybe acupuncture since I'm deathly afraid of needles) I decided to continue to go to therapy for the next week just to be open about it. I'm still looking for a human interaction that has no limits or termination. Maybe I am delusional, but I think I'll be asking T what she thinks about trying to find a permanent friend to talk to like this. If you guys can think of any more solutions, I would greatly appreciate it. I need something, or rather someone, to keep me from the bad things that I'm doing to myself.