As a teenager I was placed into a state hospital. I had been placed there after an overdose in which I came close to dying from. I had spent 5 days in ICU and then transferred to the state hospital. When I got to the hospital ( bearly able to walk on my own ) I was placed into a concreat blocked room with just a mat on the floor and a thin sheet to keep warm with. This was in the middle of Dec and it was snowing. I was left in this room for 3 days only being aloud out a couple times a day to use the restroom. It was exetremely bad there. We had no therapy. Just one social worker that came by to check on the 15 of us in one house that was only meant to house 8. We all lived in fear there. Some of the other girls there would just start fights with you for no reason. I learned to fight back very quickly. But it wasn't just the other girls to worry about, but the ppl who worked there as well. Was more then once I saw staff ppl there hit and kick patients there. One girl had the whole side of her face bruised from being thrown to the floor and the male staff member standing on the side of her head. While there one of my abusers even came to see me. That put even more fear into me. If they let him come in there what else would they do? Some girls had been there for over a year. I spent 3 months there. One day a congressman came and toured the place with some woman. I'm not sure who she was. It was the next week that they told all of us there that the place was being shut down and for us all to pack our things. I remember some girls just crying because they were finually getting out of there.

Since this has happened to me I'm extremely fearful of any hospital. I don't trust any of them ! And I won't go inpatient.