I'm trying to figure out if this is a part of depression. Because no one I know seems to know what it is.
There are times when I literally feel something wash over me. A really horrible feeling of just ugh. And it just turns into this weird thing where I start not movin much. I feel I guess kinda weak? Not like a muscle weakness. Just like I think of needing to get up and I try to push my self up with my arms and I just can't do it. It makes me tired. And my mind starts slowing down kind of. I remember sometimes I layed down on my bed and stared at a wall for hours not really thinking. I think it's almost a numbness. But it is kinda freaking me out cuz a couple times I've tried walking up the stairs while this was happening and I kind of just layed down on the stairs because I couldn't really get myself all the way up the stairs. It makes it hard to do things. Sometimes I feel like I've just lost hours because I couldn't get myself to do anything other than lie there blankly.