Thank you Monty for sharing..I am afraid that this subject might be controversial in here and might not be received well..but I am finding there are people, such as I who tremendously have back grounds that are basically based on things such as these and have no place to turn..I have done major research all over the web and keep turning up empty on support groups..I thought maybe there might be others here..My story is different from yours..but I see we might be able to connect in some ways..thanks again for sharing..this gives me some hope in a sad and messed up reality of what was shared

Any others, sharing would be appreciated even in pms!