when i moved to this new school, some girl just started to ask me to go away and not hang out in her group. i persisted a few times but then i stopped and started to find my own group of friends. turns out, that didn't work out either. i wonder why some people can be so mean, so degrading that they would just kick you out of their hoard and just leave you there. they're so freakin' mean. they need to learn to be nice before they start going to college. or maybe i'm just bad luck to people. when people show their beliefs to others by wearing a symbol around their neck, they don't judge them. but when i do, people start shying away. i just want to cuss right now but nah, it's too late to fix things. just venting and not wanting to have to deal with the past. i still feel that sense of ostracism.