Ever since the traumatic events I haven't been myself. And I thought maybe if a pretend I'm ok, then I will be fine. But it didn't work. I feel worse.

I don't want to eat. I'm afraid to sleep because I will have nightmares. I can't focus or work. I Try not to SI, but I do it anyway. I want to die but I'm not really suicidal, I just don't feel needed in life. My dad is cruel, any curse word out there could describe him perfectly. My mother isn't understanding AT ALL. And my sister is 3 hours away from me. And I'm all alone. I don't have any friends outside of PC. And Im still pretty new to my school. I'm lost and lonely and I don't know what to do. I feel dead inside. And I have more phobias than you could count. I don't know how do deal with those either...

I just need support...