Welcome hary! You're in good company. I too experience the guilt, shame, remorse, and disgust over my behaviors with food. I'm seeking recovery right now, working really hard at it. I dream that one day I'll have freedom from the cycle.
I hope you get what you need here. I know that, although I have numerous supports in my life here, the forums have been wonderful for me. Lots of understanding people. Keep coming back and posting.