Thanks so much for all your input. I feel better knowing that what he was doing was wrong and that it wasn't me or my fault, and I don't have to keep it a secret anymore, no matter if he told me I had to or not.

I wish so much it had never happened. Even the last hug he gave me made me cringe. I tried to see a new T today, but it was too triggering because they looked so alike.

I think I will try and take your advice and write it all down, as best I could. I asked for my records, but I've asked for them before and he's never complied. I think I will write it all though, and show it to my PCP and see what he says. I just want to move on at this point, and get help before it's too late.