My relationship with my partner has been terminated and it is already having an effect one me.

She used to occasionally hold me while we were falling asleep and then she would let me suckle on her until i nodded off.

I hate to say this, but i probably miss that most of all.

I find myself holding onto a pillow and wrapping my legs around a doona as i fall asleep, and also burying my face into the pillow.

It's a physical need, like sugar and caffeine, which has suddenly been withdrawn.