the way your T acted is horribly unprofessional, unethical, wrong and it definitely was not you. if you want to i think finding a good professional T would help. you could ask your doctor if he has any recommendations for one. please make sure whoever you see is reputable. you don't have to keep this T's secrets. it would probably be helpful for you to talk about it with a new T, but if you are uncomfortable reporting him you can wait on deciding about that for now. i'm really sorry this has happened.